Graduation day
The twins are growing well, #1 is two days ahead and #2 is one day ahead. They are 1,29 cm and 1,23 cm. With my genes it's likely they're gonna be tall kids. They look like a little duck and a little seahorse. Their little hearts beating like little LEDs. It's so incredible everything is so small and so complex and so rapidly developing. Big Big Tiny Miracles!
At the clinic the whole team wished me well, urging me to come back and show them when they are born. The team there has been so good to me. My own gyny, her two partners, all the nurses and the desk people. They were nicely emotional when I left. I don't think even a celebrity could have been treated nicer than I've been treated there, I swear.
I'm going to try out the public system now, in the same hospital where I had my horror experiences with the ectopics. I'll go and have a talk there to save me 4000 dollars and quite a lot of kilometers. But if I have only the slightest doubt I'll go back to my lovely friendly private fertility clinic...
Sick
Those little aliens are sucking the life out of me. No morning sickness, I just feel sick the whole day. I walk to the fridge wondering what to eat, and then quickly close it again. The only thing I can do all day is yawn and sleep. Not throwing up just yet. Maybe that would give me some relief.
Last week my gyn said it was likely I wouldn't get sick because it hadn't started by then and the levels of pregnancy hormones were high. I hate it when she is wrong!
Overall I feel happy and feel that everything is going well. (Why else would I feel so crap?) Just a bit worried every now and then. About loosing one, loosing two. What happens if you do all these tests and it shows that one will be very very ill?
6 weeks, one day, two heartbeats
On the scan yesterday: two 4mm embryos with frantic little heartbeats. They look great and are in a good place my gyn said. I had tears in my eyes when I saw them, Oh look at them, Oh I can see their little heart beats! Oh! and then I started to laugh and couldn't stop. The gyny started to giggle with me, hugging me and when I left the girls at the desk were giggeling. Such happy but a little scary news!
I went to R's work to tell him the news and show him the scan. We haven't been sleeping very well because of all the changes that are coming, and there are some things that make us both worry a bit. R instantly started to laugh too. And hasn't stopped ever since. Besides that we had a great sleep. Under two sets of tiny little red and pink striped socks...
Pups and horses
The pups are 6 weeks old now. Easy to remember as I am 6 weeks pregnant now (beta hcg is 48443 today). They are in that O-So-Cute stage, racing around, biting in your fingers. When I come home they all jump up and down. Happy little boys....
Yesterday we went to our new farm to talk to the old guy we bought it from. He's moving to China. We agreed I'll have his old horse as well. We'll call him Bert, after his old owner. So now I have two horses: Harry and Bert. But I'm not allowed to ride... Hope they'll get along!
Hard to believe
It's so hard to believe this is happening. We got the farm! Yeah, we got the money in just an hour before the deadline! Within two years after moving 18000 km over the planet I've found a husband, got pregnant and bought a property with land. I feel so rich I'm overwhelmed by it. After having him for 8 years I'll finally be able to see my horse from my bedroom window! And everytime I get excited I get nausea. Time to try to relax and show you some pictures....
