Bridezilla, where are you?
One more week and I'll be Mrs D! Oh My Oh My, just one week to get everything ready. This week has been already completely crazy with 5 extra people sleeping in the house, I'm trying to work and I still haven't found nice shoes to wear...
I might not really be suited to be a bride. I'm one of the rare cases that doesn't like shopping, goes to the hairdresser twice per year and has never had a pedi or manicure in her life. Well... this week will be my week: I've appointments for a colour and cut of my hair, a facial, legwax, pedicure, hair styling tryout, dressfitting #2 (the dress was way too big!) etc.
Girls, where do you get the time, energy and money to do this on a regular basis? It's just amazing!
The babies are doing good, I think. I'm 21 weeks now and you can feel them wriggeling around, even on the outside of my belly. Sometimes they're so busy that you can see little movements on my skin. The boy is much more feelable now than before. I think he's facing backwards and his feet are down. I feel him sometimes on the inside of my spine. Strange blips and blops.
I've had amazing dreams about them; me and the babes smiling at each other and experiencing ecstatic feelings of love. The dreams are gone now, I currently dream about table settings and flowerarrangements.... Somehow R and me will both be very happy when the whole wedding thing is over and we can go back to our everyday life...
Twenty weeks
Time is going way too fast! We're already 20 weeks. So the babes are twenty cm now (8 inches). Theoretically if the babes would decide to appear in a months time doctors would try their very best to help them survive.
Brenda (from 6 feet under) gave premature birth to her baby at 30 weeks. I realised when I saw that episode: Oh my! In 2 and a half months I could have two children! But ofcourse I'll try to keep them warm and snug as long as I can.
In fact at this stage I feel like I never want them to come into this world, it's so nice to have them inside of me. I had a dream that I gave birth to my girl. She was tiny but perfect, like a gnome in a fairytail, you know the kind that live in a big mushroom. We looked at each other and just couldn't stop smiling. So sweet.
I don't feel my boy very much at this stage as he is behind his placenta. My girl I can feel several times per day: blip blip!
Nesting hormones haven't kicked in yet. Although... I do pay much more attention to the household chores than I've ever done. I still get more excited by seeing a nice wheelbarrow than a babybed. I've been in babyshops but half the stuff I don't know what it's for. Next months I'm going to the antenatal classes, I might get some useful info there. And i think shopping with R. will help. First see what all the family brings. I should have mentioned it on the wedding invite: Please don't bring baby gifts....
I just chucked out my IVF suitcase with brochures and bills and other stuff...
Oh, by the way, I managed to find a wedding dress! I saw a dress I really liked in the wrong colour, and a dress I didn't like in the perfect fabric and now they are making the dress for me just how I want it. It's almost white, classic, silk, and flowing nicely over the bump. I'll show you later! I have to try not to get any bruises, musquito bites etc on my legs anymore from now. That's a challenge...
I tried tried also a tight golden dress but unfortunately I'm not just lean with a bump anymore. Pregnancy packed some 'emergency reserves' on my lower back and hips. It all looked a bit too chunky to my liking. I hope that the new bumps will disapear when I start riding my horse again...
We're working hard to get the property suited for the wedding. We turned the field where we'll have 'the banquet' in six weeks from an overgrown weedy wilderness ino almost a golfcourse. It lookes amazing!
With the ride-on mower we mowed a track through the longgrassed fields down to the ponds. There we mowed a circle in the grass, it will be the 'open air chapel'. I'll try to organise lots of flowers. It will be big fun. It already is.
Ladies and Gentlemen.....
Last Thursday i had the'anatomical scan'. All the bits and pieces were present. 2 x 4 heart chambers, kidneys, 20 fingers and 20 toes and..... we could see what sex they are.
On the right there is a little girl, and more to the left my baby boy... I'm so happy with this! I don't want to sound sexist or ungrateful, but honestly the news of having two boys (or two girls) would not have made me this happy....
R and me just spread the news. We see no reason to keep it a secret and all our friends and family give us great feedback and they're all thinking about names!
Furthermore the scan showed that both of them are developing according to the book, and are exactly the same size. The girl has the placenta on the back, the boy on the front. This might explain why I feel her more than him, he is nice and snug tucked away behind his placenta!
I had an interesting insight the other day. I'm so happy having two babies in one go. I do know it will be hard work, but then again, if it was only one not long after the birth I should go back to the clinic for IVF#2 to try for another one before my 40th.
I've got no embryos left in the freezer. I think that if I had I would want to 'try 'm out', or 'give 'm a chance'. As I have nothing to freeze I won't feel that pressure or longing.
So probably this is it.... It's a bit of a shame, because I can't say anything else than that I love being pregnant. I feel very good. I feel lots of love for everything. I will remember this time as one of the happiest times in my life.
You might smile and say: well wait until you're 7 months you'll feel different about being pregnant! But up till now it's great. My backpain is gone too and I'm full of energy.
